Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Resolution or Bust

I can hear the wheels turning.

I can hear the questions forming.


I can hear the judgement just from a title.


Yes, we are 27 days into the new year.


Yes, most people have made their lists weeks ago.


Yes, I am a little behind the eight ball.


But the wheels can come to a screeching halt now.


You can keep those questions behind tightly sealed lips.


All judgement can be swept under the rug.


Feeling like you are out of the loop on something?


Ready for the secret?

Are you sure?

Ok, get ready for the shock of your life. I didn't make any resolutions this year. Not a list. Nope, not a one. Okay. Okay. Are you done with the eye rolls, the gasps and the social outcast status that you have cast upon me for the entire year? You are? Okay, good. If you hang with me for a few minutes I will put your reservations to rest about my New Year rebellion.

You know when you look up the word resolution in the dictionary it doesn't seem like a big green monster. The definition of the word is "the act or process of resolving; the act of analyzing a complex notion into simpler ones; the act of answering; solving; the act of determining." There is nothing scary about any of those phrases whatsoever. They are all processes that we partake in throughout the course of everyday. When you think about it, everything we do whether with our conscious brain or not is in a form a resolution of sorts. You think I'm speaking Greek? Well, just think about it: What are you going to wear to work? You analyze the weather, what clothes you have clean, and what you wore the day before to resolve on what you are going to wear that particular day. Good enough? Point proven? Ok, can I move on now? So, like I was saying the word doesn't creep out of the dark corners of the world looking for a person to eat; yet, I don't even want the monster lingering in the vicinity of me for the year.

I read somewhere that 88% of resolutions are broken the first day. THE FIRST DAY! I mean, come on ... it's one day! Really? Okay, okay, I asked you not to judge me. I guess the least I can do is not judge 88% of the population. I promise. No judgement here. (Especially since you can't see my crossed fingers behind my back...we are all good) And the other stat: 96% of resolutions are broken by the end of the first week! Wow, that green monster sure gets his fill by January 10th for sure. So, why would I want something with such horrible statistical probability to weight over me as a huge failure and dissapointment for a whole year? I may have my insane moments but I'm not completely out of my mind.

And I am enjoying this year. No burdens. No unneccessary worries. No extra check list staring at me with no tasks completed. And let me tell you, I do love my check lists! I'm loving it. With all of the craziness and chaos in our lives, there is a calm in the pit of my stomach telling me I don't have to meet some unrealistic heights that I set in an attempt to better myself.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not going to sit around like a bump on a log and let the year pass me by. I'm still going to accomplish things. I'm still going to try and be healthier and work out. I'm still setting milestones that I am striving for with the horses and Zip. I'm just not making that "OFFICIAL RESOLUTION LIST."

So 've decided that I have set one goal for myself for the year. One accomplishment or achievement to strive for if you will. Now, before I even tell you what it is you are probably already dismissing everything I have said to this point. You are probably saying that there is nothing different between a resolution and a goal or an achievement. When you look up the word goal in the dictionary it says "the end towards which effort is directed" and "a result by gained by effort" is seen when you look at the word achievement. To me, these words have such a different feeling. A resolution just means you are going to act or you are planning to do something. A resolution looks great on paper as a list. A goal shows effort. A goal means that a milestone has been reached and an accomplishment has been achieved. A goal has such a more positive and uplifting tone to it. An accomplishment shows that hard work and sweat has paid off. So to me, there is a big difference in a little terminology. Therefore, I have set myself a goal that each and everyday I can achieve and have an accomplishment to show for it.

Sara's Goal for Achieving Success in 2010
  • Not to allow myself to fall victim to my perfectionism and procrastination tendencies.

That is it! That is the only sentence that I am living my life by this year. I have such a tendency to not start a project that I HAVE to get done or WANT to get done because I'm not going to dedicate a 110% to it at that moment. And then those moments add up and all I have to show for it is a great idea waiting in the wings. So I'm throwing it to the wayside. I'm going to work on things even if it is only half way or only have time to hurry through it so that it is only haphazardly done for the moment. But even after that moment, it is still done! It may not be perfect like I would like to envision it to be, but all in all it is done and I didn't allow procrastination to take me hostage. It is amazing how these two words go hand in hand and by not falling prey to one I am keep the other from crowding it's way into my day as well.

So, for now I am going to sit back enjoying the fact that I have wrote a blog without analyzing it or making it perfect. I am going to relax until I have a moment appear where I have to fling into action to keep the monsters at bay. But for now, I am enjoying looking at the big green monster in his cage. And right now, he can't get out.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Horse Fever

I guess she takes after her mom.

Sorry, Dad! I think it is inevitable.


It must be in the genes.

I mean, she isn't the first in the family to have the fever.

Grandma has the bug...Mom has the bug...even Dad is starting to get the bug..


I guess that says it...She's got the bug too!

Makenzie is starting to show her love for horses more and more everyday. It is so fun to watch how comfortable she is around them. It is such a blessing to be able to introduce her to something that we love and for her to enjoy it as well. It is wonderful to be able to take her out to feed horses every evening. She loves it. I mean really loves it! It is the only time she willingly goes into the stroller.

After we get the horses in their stalls with grain and hay she can get out of the stroller to visit everybody. Kenzie loves Roz. She is drawn to her. Typically, Roz is kind of jumpy. She holds herself with a little bit of tension...once again showing her respect issue tendencies. But with Kenzie, she is a different horse. She is calm, her eye relaxes, and she takes relaxing breaths. Even with Kenzie trying to pet her face and accidentally hitting her in the eye or the muzzle with her coat, Roz is as stoic as an old pack mule. Roz even seeks out loves from Makenzie. It makes me wonder if there is hope to reaching her still...




Roz is by her favorite to ride. Maybe because she is short. Maybe because she is so round and easy to sit on. Like I said, this little girl is just drawn to this horse. And she is such a natural little rider. She sits down, grabs a little mane, and with her legs in perfect horsemanship position she rocks her body and clucks to try and get Roz to go. You just can't teach that!!! Every now and then, Roz will oblige and take a step forward. No scream, no screech, no crying just a big huge grin out of a little girl.



Over the last few weeks, we have gone to see other horses perform as well. Santa left us tickets for the National Western Invitational Freestyle Reining. Some of the contestants had elaborate costumes, people on the ground to assist them with their performance, different levels and colors of spotlights, and a wide variety of music. Kenzie had a blast clapping whenever people hooted and hollered at a sliding stop or a great set of spins.



Not only did she have a great time, but she wore her cowgirl attire. As always, our little cowgirl stole the show with her antics and adorable outfit. Little pink western shirt with lassos and horses, jeans, and to top it all of pink ostrich skin ropers.

We also went to the Big Thunder Draft Horse Show when it was in town. Hitches from all over the country come to compete before heading down to the Stock Show. We watched a variety of different hitch teams compete, pairs: unicorn hitch, 4 and 6 horse teams. We had a great time trying to pick out the team that we all thought showed the best teamwork, had the most eye appeal and would be the class winner.

After the show was over, we got to see the horses up close and personal. It was so neat to watch Kenzie's expression as we walked up to the first stall. First, she had a look of terror. Followed by a "holy cow, that is one big thing." Slowly her expression changed as she realized what it was, "Hey, that is just a BIG horse!" And all of a sudden she was trying to jump out of my arms to be closer to the horse. She didn't care when they sniffed her hand. She wasn't bothered when they nibbled at her coat thru the stall bars. Kenzie had a blast just being around the horses. We all laughed at their antics and how quickly you could pick up on each horse's personality.





We also got a chance to talk with the owners and exhibitors of the horses. We learned that each harness costs about $5000 and each wagon has roughly a $50,000 price tag! And I thought my show bridle and flashy saddle lead to an expensive hobby!




You know, all of my friends gives me a funny look when I say start keeping an eye out for a pony for Kenzie for next summer. They look at Kenzie and you can tell they think she is way to little for her own pony. I knew months ago that even though she will only be two and a half, that little girl is going to need her own pony next summer.

I mean, just take a look for yourself.

The little girl has got the fever....HORSE FEVER at it's finest!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Take it Away! I Don't Want it Anymore!

I swear, spring needs to come NOW!

Yeah, Yeah I know! We live in Colorado. It snows, its cold, and where we live the wind can be torture. And yes, I do know we have three more months of winter left as dictated by the calendar. And do you know what?

I really, really, really (did I stress really enough?) DO NOT care!!! I am begging. Pleading even. Just work with me this one time. Please!

As I said already, spring needs to come to our house NOW before I lose my ever-loving mind.

Why you may ask? Everyone is going crazy, literally! Being cooped up is causing everyone to be a little on edge. Just a little...

The pigeons are going to kill me one of these days. I'm serious. I hate those stupid birds. I can't stand trying to catch them or clean their coop. It really isn't their fault. Years and years of raising baby chicks in feed stores has conditioned me to detest birds of any kind. I think they are neat to watch, with all of their different colors and patterns. They hang out on the roof of the dog kennel or shop, in the driveway or select parts of the pasture. It is pretty neat when they all decide to get their daily exercise as they make laps around the property as a big group and its fun to watch Jake work Ruger on them. Actually it is really fun...then they get a little scared of you again. They get caught, get shoved into a little box, have a big dog point them intently waiting to "get the bird" and then get released and have to fly away in a frenzy before said dog catches them. They probably dread it when we lock them in so we can catch them. I kind of wonder what their thoughts are on the whole experience. But that is their job and really the only reason we keep them around.

However, I can not stand to feed the little boogers. They only get fed at night for two reasons. One, it makes them all come into the coop so that no one becomes wild animal bait and two, pigeons can easily become overweight as we found out after we inquired them so we have to monitor their daily intake. When you open the doors to the building, you can hear them getting excited. Usually they are super quiet in the dark, finding a roosting spot and just chillin', but when they know dinner is about to be served, it is a completely different story. They have three food containers and their waterer on the floor of the coop and the instant the inner door opens there is mass hysteria as they all attack their metal tubs. They don't even let you in the room before they attack. When 40, 60 or who know how many birds come at you at once for the can of food that you are holding, they are no longer small birds. They turn into one massive, hungry attacking bird. So, I have developed a method for feeding them: Sara is terrified out of her britches feeding method. Step 1: open door to crazy animals. Step 2: with food container in hand, step into room with one foot while be cautions to cover the half of your body in the room from the flying frenzy. Step 3: Fling food at the containers. Step 4: praise yourself for not getting killed and making a few small pieces of food in the metal containers. Lately with such cold weather, the birds are extra hungry which equates to extra crazy. They also have not been worked in months with equates to extremely confident with me going in the coop. Everyday I hope that Jake makes it home before I have a chance to do chores so I can avoid the insanity. It works sometimes, until he catches on to my strategy. Then I think I'm in for a rebellion...

The cats are the only good "kids" these days. Daisy ventures out and about only coming in to get fed during chore time. Then there are the babies. Socks and Sylvester, who is barely alive how I don't know. The poor cat only has five lives left and he's only eight months old. We felt bad of the cats because we got rid of the trash in the dog kennel that they were using as a bed. So, we took pity on them and gave them a old dog bed that Ruger had shredded on one end. And we are thanked....every second of everyday. They never leave the bed EVER. You feed in the morning, they are sleeping in the bed. You work outside during the day, they are sleeping in the bed. You feed at night, they are sleeping in the bed. I guess I shouldn't wonder why they are so obese they can barely walk. But they still share mice with me, so I guess I won't make them do cat aerobics... just yet.

Then there are the big crazies. Peaches and Roz have a love-hate relationship. You would think that two horses that have been together for four years would have established a pecking order and by now at least be okay with that fact. Not at our house. They love each other during the day. They hang out. They mosey around the pasture together. They play together. But when it is time to eat, the gloves are off. Roz is the fatty of the group besides being the alpha mare. I don't think she realizes that she is the fatty. We feed her first allowing the fatty, alpha mare feel special and keep Peaches alive another day. The only problem is the second Roz gets done she has to stand by and watch Peaches eat her food painfully slow. It even hurts me to watch her eat so slow. But wait, Roz had a plan. If she can't eat, no one can. So, as soon as she finishes her grain, she will kick at Peaches through the stall panels. Peaches freaks out and instantly gets mad and procceds to take her anger out on innocent Chex. Poor little guy, all he wants is to eat his food in peace.

After about a week of Roz's game, she actually kicked the side of the stall panel off. Thankfully, no one was hurt beside Roz being just a little more jumpy than normal. Reluctantly, we decide Chex is going to live in between the girls. I knew I was setting him up to get murdered but we had to do something. So we put Peaches in the end stall first, followed by Chex in the middle. Roz went over and stood by Peaches and refused to go to her stall until she was made to by force. She then looked over Chex and whinnied at Peaches, wondering why her buddy was so far away. Everyone has ate in peace for a week. Roz still pouts when she realizes her friend isn't eating beside her. But the second they are let out, Roz pins her ears and chases Peaches away from the hay pile. I swear, girls.

I keep telling them they better mellow out because work time is coming soon. I keep telling them they better enjoy their free time before we start riding again soon. They don't seem to listen so I am pleading to the weather. Weather, become nice now before I don't have any horses left to work when you do decide to cooperate.

Do you feel symapthy for me yet?

Can you feel my desperation?

But that isn't all. Oh, yes it gets worse.

Bailey is going to cause the boys to have an all out fist fight pretty soon. Bailey hasn't come into heat for probably close to two years now. It really is nice that I don't have to worry about the two boys hanging out with her. However, I think she still gives off phermones around the times she is technically supposed to cycle. It is going to make the boys go crazy. Zip becomes on edge and gets really aggressive towards Ruger, who thinks Zip is growling to get him to play and is completely oblivious to the fact that he is about to get his butt kicked hardcore. I have come to the conclusion that Zip and Roz were created from the same mold. Those two can be so much trouble.

Normally during cold weather we let Bailey decide if she wants to spend the day outside or in the shop due to her bad hips we don't like to make her more sore. The other day I forced her to go outside and get alittle sun for a change. Still being the spoiled little girl that she is, she got to hang out instead of being put in the kennels like the boys. Zip and Ruger hate the fact that she can go where she pleases and are not shy about voicing their disapproval. So, thanks to my lovely little brother that spent a whole weekend teaching her to bark on command, she joins in and creates even more ruckus. Besides causing Makenzie to tell you that they are giving her a headache, they are completely ignored. Until last Saturday that is...

I went to the kitchen to get Kenzie another sippy cup refill and look out the window to see the boys standing at the fence facing each other. Cussing to myself, I open the front door to yell at them to stop whatever it is that they are doing. Zip gets down and Ruger just stayed there standing at the fence. Okay, that's weird...he is usually more obedient than that. So I throw shoes on and head outside in my t-shirt and shorts to see what his deal is. I get down to the kennel and Ruger had shoved his foot and about two inches of his leg past his ankle between the two metal post that hold the kennels together. Now he isn't a big Shorthair by any means but he has enormous feet. All I see is blood and Ruger is completely quiet. No wimpering is a bad sign. That means he is scared out of his mind. I try to push his leg back through and it doesn't budge.

Ruger hates to be in the kennel when you are getting home. He is strong enough that he can stand at the back of his kennel and get enough speed that when he runs at the gate and jumps on it he can move the latch with the snow and get out. Well, we tied his door shut with baling twine to teach him not to do that and I guess we tried again. I don't think that was the result he was going for. I don't even now how he managed to wedge his leg in there. I can't imagine how fast he was running and how hard he hit that gate in order to accomplish that task. I don't even want to think about how long he was standing like that before I happened to go and see what they were making a commotion about.

I run up to the shop in a hurry. All I can think about is that Ruger has just broken his leg and how I am going to get him unstuck. I grab a ratchet and race back down to the kennel. After about 20 minutes of trying to get frozen bolts to budge while helping Ruger brace himself since I had to open the door and he is trying to put his head in my lap to be comforted I finally get it loosened up enough to squeeze his leg back thru. Ruger hobbles towards the shop barely toe touching. His foot was already starting to swell so I couldn't get an accurate assessment on the damage. I wrap his leg and let him sleep in the shop until chore time. Chores go uneventfully for a change that night. I unwrap Ruger's leg and it looks the same so I just rewrapped it and crossed my fingers that he would leave it alone until moring.

The next morning, we all head out to do chores. Ruger's foot was swollen but he was putting pressure on his leg which was a great sign! Ruger was doing his typical 15 minute crap in 16 different spots. When all of a sudden he starts racing down the one side of the property and we realize he doesn't have his hunting collar on which is not a good sign that he is going to come back right away. Zip goes chasing after him. Then we figure out what is going on. They are chasing an antelope! They run the antelope over to the herd of about 30 in the field across the gravel road. Ruger stands out there pointing the antelope while Zip herds them into a little circle. Neither of them would call off. So we waited while Zip held them. Finally he let them break and they ran across the road all but one, which Zip ran over to be with its buddies. Zip was so proud of himself and he had so much fun playing. I guess it is good to see how much natural herding ability he has. I tried telling him that they don't have antelope herding trials so he can leave them be. But then again, we do have a Ruger that thought they were point worthy so I guess anything is possible.

That night Ruger's foot is the size of a bear's paw. There was no swelling up his leg due to my amazingly professional wrapping skills. Gotta give props to the horses for acquiring that skill! We finally get a good look at his leg. He has a gash on the bone about two inches long. Thankfully he didn't hurt himself worse with the whole ordeal. Now a couple of days later, his leg is almost completely healed up and you can hardly tell that he got hung up at all. And it looks like he will survive to hunt another day.

I keep telling the boys that as soon as the days get longer we are going to start playing a lot more. I keep threatening that they may not be "boys" much longer if they keep up the trouble. I am actually looking forward to the longer days to get the agility course out and really put them to work mentally and physically. So come on weather...let's go.

Now are you starting to understand? Are you catching on to my desperation? I'm getting way to anxious for all of the things I can do once the sun decides to stay in the sky just a few more hours each day. I am sick of the snow that has been on the ground for three weeks now. I am willing to beg and plead and have happy thoughts. I will jump up and down while patting my belly and rubbing my head if that is what it is going to take. Just take it away...I don't want it anymore. Is that too much to ask?

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Go Nuggets!

Jake was given the opportunity to get free tickets to a Denver Nuggets basketball game. Who could say no to that? So, we decided to take Jake's parents with us to the game since they had never been to a game since the team moved to the Pepsi Center. This was also going to be Makenzie's first NBA game! Our seats were in the sixth row from the floor. You know, everytime we go to a game I have the same constant amazement. I remember playing basketball as a kid and the court seemed so big and took forever to travel up and down. Watching these guys go from sideline to sideline took less than 10 strides. It is just jaw-dropping to me not only how tall these guys are but how truly small they make the court look! We were all a little concerned before the game was to start...our three star players (Chauncey Billups, Carmelo Anthony and Chris Andersen) were all out with injuries, so we weren't quite sure what to expect.
Everyone had a great time and like always Makenzie was the little flirt and attention seeker from anyone who took their eyes off the game. She had her first hotdog and little bits of popcorn. She had so much fun going from me and Grandma to Dad and Grandpa, who were sitting behind us.

Oh NO!!! They scored!!!


GO Nuggets GO!!!

The game was exciting! The score going back and forth the whole four quarters. We got to the last two minutes and we were down by five. The Nuggets come back and score six unanswered points. Then the lead gets stolen back by the Warriors. Tension is building with the game clock winding down. Everyone was on their feet. With the clock running out, they call for a jump ball . The Nuggets head to the free-throw line for three shots. We make two and intentionally miss the third with 0.04 seconds left. Score is tied at this point with no time left. Wait, again! They put 0.01 seconds back on the clock for one last play. The Nuggets make one more free throw and it's over! It was a wonderful ending to a great game!